My Fear
I am terrified of losing out on God. I am terrified that I won’t feel his presence like I do now. I am terrified that I won’t be able to walk in his power or enjoy a congregation that welcomes his presence like I get to experience now. I am afraid of walking away and settling for less of God than I have now. I am afraid that I will be surrounded by dull people; people that are dull towards God. I want a staff that is excited and animated about God. I want people that fully embrace everything God has to offer, even if they don’t grasp it with their minds.
I am so scared, God, of losing the intimacy and fire I have with you right now. Hold me in your arms. Never let me go. I don’t want less of you. I don’t want you to diminish in my life. I want more of you. I want you to grow in my life. I want my territory in you to expand.
It isn’t a conjured up feeling. It is a pursual of God, a hungriness and neediness of the things of God. It is a steady seeking of his face. It is being in his Word daily, praying throughout the day, giving mind, body and spirit to God in daily worship and corporate worship.
posted by Amber Lynn @ 11:15 AM
4 Comments:
There's a verse in Scripture that says something like, "Perfect love casts out all fear."
I can tell you that God's not afraid of losing you, Amber--so don't be afraid of losing His love.
"So do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be afraid for I am your God. I will strenghten you and help you--I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
Isaiah 41:10
Thank you, Weets!!!! :)
No, thank you. Your post "My Crossroad" is providing a wonderful springboard to the TrustQuest post I am currently working on. Of course, we didn't plan that but God did:)
I didn't read it until last night, and I awoke with that post in my head and excited that the Lord had revealed an introductory angle.
Props to you for putting into words your vulnerabilities.
That is so cool! God works everything for his glory. I have my other blog where I am ministering to a bunch of non-Christians. They don't really know that is my intent of course. But on my post over there yesterday I wrote what I thought was an innocuous statement "I had a cryfest with God".
I don't want to explain what happened to protect the innocent, but someone contacted me through email that is a regular reader of that blog to ask questions and show their seeking.
I water down that blog. I use this one to fully expand my Spiritual thinking. I think it is really, really awesome how God uses a lot of things to work himself into people's lives.
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